<< 2004-04-10 | 6:21 p.m. >>
I think i was in a bad mood and I didn't know it.
I guess the reason i am writing in here is cuz I was practically hit in the face with my crazy insecurities the other day. and i mean WHAM! my whole life was thrown in perspective. The people who know me here...and people who wanna read this,... i don't like calling people. i am not a cally person. i used to be, don't get me wrong, but now i stopped for some reason or another. and trst me, i hate it now. there are people who care for me and i never try to keep in contact with them. it sucks, but i am trying to get past that.
i really cannot explan myself otherwise.
so here it is. there are people that i know that must be called. some people i have only met once, and some people who have changed my life in so many ways that they will never know.
i hate being a conceited bitch.
everything has been turned upside down and i really need to rethink where i go from here.
i hate being shy.
and you all know this, i am a shy person. it makes me seem like i am self-centered or mean, or whatever, but that is what sucks. i'm not. and i hate being seen that way. i am not super outgoing, i was never raised to feel that i could talk to anyone and make friends of them. i am getting out of that shell now, but it's hard.
that's all for now i guess. i really don't know what else to say.
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